Book review - The Horse Whisperer

Finished my journey with "The Horse Whisperer". What a delectable read. I did this mistake of parallel reading - I picked up an exclusive and a best seller as always to manage the pace. This and "The Girl on the train". One thirds through both the books, I realised my heart was with the horse whisperer, I didn't want to parallel read anymore. Its now two days since I've wrapped HW, I still don't want to touch another book or Girl on the train that I'm yet to complete. I am not two-timing, no, not yet; my love is still strong, I'm still thinking of the characters, the scenes - pretty much hung over you know, if ukwim.

HW is a beauty. It unravels slowly with intense emotions and yes, a horse could very well be a hero or a protagonist too, why not. Animals emote right.

The weightage given to both the female and male characters was commendable. The love was enthralling - between the horses and the people, or the men and the women. (I don't want to give away, therefore no TMI on the main post). And the ending is gut wrenching. The book haunts you for a while, and then more, the characters stay with you. A keeper. A lovely keeper, I say.

And how she hated sleep.

Yet another afternoon when my Two-nager is fighting sleep, she'll drop asleep even on the floor any moment literally but she simply wont, she's fighting it with every ounce of energy in her spent-body and flaming mind.

In a very futile attempt to put her to sleep by 3pm I've told her 6 to 7 fairy tales.

R - Amma innoru witch story sollu.
Me - idhu thaan last baby (we finished with Hansel and Gretel, and I start off with Room on the broom..)
Ok, story finish. So we sleep now.
R - babbles and babbles.
Me - ok, we'll sleep now. We close our eyes. (I'm closing my eyes lying on the bed with her) and we count one to ten. One, two three....
R - Amma ni one to twenty count pannu, naan olinjukkren.
(My mind voice) - aagaah. Thirumbavum modhalairundu kodu podraley

And then it took a good convincing of twenty minutes that we can't play Hide and Seek now before the disheartened-she fell asleep.

Finally. If only you know what I mean.

So somebody give me a medal, please. And to every mother if one can. And to mums of furchilds too.

Because we're SO done.  #mommywoes #2yo

Save a friend

So my friend doesn't respond to my calls, I always made an effort to call her or keep a tab on her. Slowly these days it was getting me pissed off. I mean, here I am doing a full time job, raising a dragon and trying to connect with her and there she is - single not responsive whatever reasons come may. I was seething with anger.

Then last month I called her up to make a brunch date it looks like she had shifted cities. And I finally thought I didn't have to go behind someone who doesn't reciprocate. There are people who genuinely love me and care about me, who reach out to me all the time that sometimes I take a break from them in need of space. I thought I will leave that so called 10+ years of friendship for good last week. But again this week I wanted to empathize with her one last time, I texted her how I felt, that I'm always making time for her when she is in her shell not answering back. She responds with a genuine heartfelt messgae that she's been happy that I have made numerous attempts to connect esp when she was alone and an explanation that she has been going through a LOT in terms of her alliance front, and told me that she was sorry and that things have been ugly for her. I surpsingly realise I may as well have thrown that relationship away, had I not told her that she's important but she's annoying me with the hide and seek behaviour, frankly. It dawns on me not to ignore someone, for they may be in need, give it one last chance "if it deserves". It did. We broke that effin ice.

Sometimes assumptions and ego kill beautiful relationships, I saved one of mine today.